Saturday 15 October 2016

A Capsule Wardrobe

In the loft of my house is a battered old tan plastic suitcase full of clothing which would never fit me now, assuming it was not hopelessly out of fashion, too short for my shape and age, or too tattered and torn for public decency. My children would ponder whether the charity shop or the recycling box was its most appropriate destination, but they can make that decision when the time comes, because I could never dispose of any of it. To me, it is a time capsule and a treasure trove, a repository of memories, a miniature museum of my earlier life.
Take this pelmet of a skirt. We didn't have much money when I was growing up, and I had few clothes apart from my deeply uncool school uniform. When puberty made dressmaking for dolls less than appealing, my mother refused to let me use her treadle sewing machine to sew for myself. My friend's older sister was going stir-crazy, due to a prolongued period of house arrest following a bout of rheumatic fever) and offered to teach me how to use a machine and supervise this project. I spent a birthday ten shilling note (50p) on a short length of tweed in London's Walthamstow street market. The style required a lining too, but I had run out of cash. We improvised by plundering the lining of an outgrown dressing gown – an early example of the now-trendy upcycling – and in due course my very trendy mini skirt was complete. I can still see my parents' faces when I showed them my creation. They seemed stunned and surprised by my subterfuge, though now I suspect they might have been shocked by the fashionable distance between my knees and the carefully sewn hem. I know the lining isn't there any more – it ripped and rotted until I tore it out as easily as if it was tissue paper. But this skirt marked my first mini skirt, my first home-sewn garment (even if the home was in the next street to ours) and my first (but not last) big parental deception.
As the result of my subterfuge, my father took me shopping to the local departmental store in Leytonstone – two bus rides away, we had no car – and let me choose two lengths of fabric and two dressmaking patterns. They were both soon finished and both even shorter than the skirt. Fortunately, tights had become affordably available and I had to practice sitting and reaching down without revealing the colour of my underwear. One dress was made of a psychedelic print in purple, navy, yellow and tan and was pronounced by my Dad as too bright for church. The other was a groovily dowdy brown and turquoise tiny floral print shirt dress with a zip front. My boyfriend thought that was rather wonderful, for reasons my parents would not have approved of, and which led to a lot of wrestling.



The Girl in a Striped Hat, 2 - further developed.

It was bitterly cold, standing and shuffling in the short queue at the bus stop where everyone waited in weary, self-contained silence. At last her bus arrived. Stef went to her favourite seat behind the side door and gratefully sat down, undoing her coat buttons and wrinkling her nose as the frosty chill outside was replaced by the fug of heated stale air and body odour. Hiding behind her long chestnut hair and fringe, under the knitted striped hat that had been a Christmas present from her Mum, she indulged in one of her favourite pastimes. Stef loved to people watch when she commuted on the bus. London was so very full of mysterious people: not like the West Country village she'd grown up in, where everyone seemed to know everybody and the grapevine spread news in no time. Here, she could imagine the hidden lives of the anonymous, self-contained passengers around her, and once a week in the cafe around the corner from her office, she could enjoy a cappuccino and a slice of cake while indulging in more adventures of the imagination with her fellow customers as her cast of characters? What had they been doing all day? Where would they be going on to when they departed – out with friends for the evening, or home to their families? Was that girl texting her girlfriend or her partner? Were those women in the corner exchanging notes on their social lives, a shopping trip or their plans for Christmas? Since she and Charles had split up, she had no-one and nothing much to rush home for. When they had started living together, she couldn't wait to get home to their nest, but now the only company was silence and loneliness. This stop for a snack before returning to her quiet flat was a weekly treat as well as putting off the inevitable. It was a long time since she had felt happy in her relationship with Charles, but his departure had left a large hole in her life and in her self-esteem. Apart from her daydreaming, most of her entertainment came from the library books that she read avidly, but she was beginning to feel that too much of her life was second hand. Stef knew she was quite shy, but loneliness was starting to get the better of her, and she hadn't chosen to live like a hermit. She needed to pick herself up and start living her own life instead of imagining the lives of others. She needed to get out more, she thought, but how?  

Friday 14 October 2016

The girl in a striped hat

At last her bus arrived. Stef went to her favourite seat behind the side door and gratefully sat down, undoing her coat buttons as the frosty chill outside was replaced by the fug of heated airlessness, stale cigarette smoke and body odour. Hiding behind her long chestnut hair and fringe, under the knitted striped hat that had been a Christmas present from her Mum, she indulged in one of her favourite pastimes. Stef loved to people watch when she caught the bus to work. The city was so very full of mysterious people: not like the village she'd grown up in, where everybody seemed to know everyone and the grapevine spread news in no time. Here, she could imagine the hidden lives of the anonymous, self-contained passengers around her, and in the cafe around the corner from her office, she could enjoy a cappuccino and a cake while indulging in more adventures of the imagination with her fellow customers as her cast of characters? What had they been doing all day? Where would they be going on to when they departed – out with friends for the evening, or home to their families? Since she and Charles had finally split up, she had no-one and nothing much to rush home for, so this stop for a snack before returning to her quiet flat was a weekly treat as well as putting off the inevitable. It was a long time since she had felt happy in her relationship with Charles, but his departure had left a large hole in her life and in her self-esteem. Apart from her daydreaming, most of her entertainment came from the library books that she read avidly, but she was beginning to feel that too much of her life was second hand. She needed to pick herself up and start living her own life instead of imagining the lives of others.  

This is a descriptive extension of a short character sketch.  I tried to add more, but it was hard to add much because the writing didn't seem to suit more descriptors.  One to return to.